I want it to happen.

Couple of days ago I had a little tension going on between Din and I.
Its always my fault.I get a little too emotional sometimes I guess.
Well,the start of my day on that particular moment,I went to work with tears in my eyes.
I was listening to "Love the way you lie" on repeat and I kind of got carried away.
I got home from my morning shift and that was how it started.
But thank God we patched things up.
I was to be blamed anyway,for being a dick head.haha.
Anyways,Jerkass is in Japan and for days now,we have been chatting.
On web cam too! It was comfortable,he's still the same Jerk he denies to be.hahaha
But really,it had been fun.
I just got off from talking to him.Its too bad he couldn't celebrate his birthday and Raya here in Singapore.
Well today also marked my last day in clinical posting for semester 1.I am going to miss my CA cause she has been nothing but a ball of fun.She has definitely been nice but I swear I have never taken her for granted.I appreciate it when she rights my wrongs,I try to appreciate her silly lame jokes(hahahahaha) but most of all,I don't think there will be another CA who is as lenient and wonderful like her.Further more,she wouldn't be teaching no longer,but I hope somewhere in the future,we would bump towards each other again,maybe as colleagues? Who knows.
Ah life is getting scary these days.I still don't know what I want to do.
I feel like I should start providing for my parents already,and I already have a future planned out(God's willing).
But I still feel like I should give myself a chance to excel further,like maybe doing paramedics,study journalism/writing/media and perhaps travel while studying.
I'm an ambitious coward.I fear the unfamiliar would bring me down,which is why I feel like I should stick around in the comfort zone.Why the hell not?This concerns my future!
I have people telling me to do everything at least once,but what if,that one thing I try might affect my life in a not so good way?
What happens then?
Bejesus.I hope my future would unfold in front of my eyes soon.
Till then,the Ramadhan has left us yet again and we welcome ourselves to Syawal.
Have a good blissful one.
Enjoy but don't forget the ones who've left us,they are equally as important.
Cherish.Appreciate.Love.
P.s:I want to give you a part of myself you have not experienced yet,the truth.