"I am better than your ex" -You may just be right.

I have no idea why recently I did something I stopped myself from doing for years.
Haha.
I am not regretting it,cause its just going to be another experience in life.
I know what I'm going to face when the end comes for me.
All I am feeling now is content,thank you for one hell of an experience.
I guess,sometimes what people say is right;
Its not about how long you know someone,its about how much you want to know or you know about them.
Din once told me, "it maybe too soon but its better than being to be too late."
The phrase was an instant tear jerker.I was silent,I couldn't keep up with his wisdom.
And I couldn't let myself get detached from him either.
A person I would typically fall for wasn't him.He has a little too many flaws which I can over-look but most often than not,many others can't.
A stern face which disguised a beautiful warm smile.A hug-able chubby body with personal thoughts drawn.Every words he spoke fascinates me more and more each time.
I was truly interested to learn him from the beginning to what he has become now.
But my feelings for him is still a great question.I am clueless why I don't feel the same way he does.
Every "first time" that I've been doing recently was taught by him.I suppose I'll be indebted by him my whole life.
Personally I don't give a fuck about what people may think about him,I like him as he is now.
He's a great guy and I think he deserve more than me.I will only be a burden and I wish he could see that.I would be lying if I don't care for him,I very much do.But I don't have the hearts to love him,cause somewhere down the road,I'll be yet another bitch in his life who may or may not leave him.

But anyways,
I enjoy the spooning session.
I enjoy feeling the rhythmical rising and falling of your chest against mine.
I enjoy feeling your fluttering eyelashes against my cheek.
I enjoy the warmth you've given me when I felt so,so,so cold suddenly.
I enjoy your warm breath against the nape of my neck.
I enjoy the slow tap against my hip when you try to make me fall asleep with you so close to me.
I enjoy the constant forehead kisses you give when you thought I had fallen asleep.
I enjoy how you would sulk when I pretend not to care about what you think.
I enjoy breathing in your scent,kissing your body randomly and seeing you smile.
I enjoy how you would whisper sweet things in my ear.
I enjoy how you would wrap your arms around me and pull me tighter each time we call it a night.
I enjoy how we would curse at each other for nothing and make up the next minute.
I enjoy how you try so hard to interlace your fingers with mine.
I enjoy how hard you try to ask me out for dinner.(haha!)
I enjoy the way it feels when I'm with you but sadly,
I don't know what I am actually feeling for you.

Nevertheless,it would still hurt me if you found someone to replace me.
I would be slightly jealous cause at least,you've found your match.
"sayang,please be mine?" with a reply of staring aimlessly towards the setting sun sea.
I felt a slight twang when you say "you are the best thing that has happened to me now." in between silences and I could only just look at you without a word.
I am afraid if you're doing too much without the kind of result you're hoping to achieve.
I am trying to feel the same way.I am.
I think you're the only person who've physically hurt me and instantly made me feel better because of my habitual speech about dying fast,dying young.
I just need things to slow down a little bit,I feel like we're going too fast I might end up marrying you.
wahahaha!
Till then folks,
Love.Appreciate!
P.s:"I miss your kisses."