It needs to stop.

I understand I was never wanted in the first place.
You brought me up nonetheless.
I am greatly thankful for that and I appreciate the "I don't have a choice,I got to raise you anyway" act that you've done so far.
I'm almost nineteen,thank you.

Throughout my days growing up,I have been through the best and roughest patch in life.
You never fell under the category best,you actually contributed to my roughest times in my life.
No doubt you have been very flexible with me,but I am not one of your boys.
I am after all,a girl.The only girl you will ever have.
I respected your leniency towards me,but you were never there to offer me the kind of support I always wanted for in a person I should have looked up to.
You tried being accepting and insightful but I know one thing for sure,I don't want to grow up and be like you.

Thank you for thinking that all these while I am nothing but a nuisance.
Thank you for blaming me when something goes wrong.
Thank you for the purposeful snide words,I can still hear you if you're talking about me behind closed doors.
It hurts so bad,sometimes I wish I could just disappear and let your point of view on me rest.
And the best part is,you never know when to stop.
I guess all my life you've done nothing but down degrade me and congratulations,you never seem to stop hurting me.
I wish I could hate you,but I'll be sinned all my life.Besides,you brought me up.
I can never repay you enough.
But you can never mend the broken in me.You've cause it all my life.

I broke your son's arm when I was so much younger,I was probably three,four,I'm sure you still blame me after all theses years.
I'm sorry I can't be the person you want me to be.
I will go on breaking your heart,perhaps for both of you.
But please,try and forgive me.
I really don't know who to go to anymore.
I have been damned,will be damned and that is just how it rolls.

I'll see you guys whenever.
I'm outta here.