Here,looking at you.

I came back from a weekend vacation on Monday and went to Johor with the boys on the next following day.I have no idea why I didn't feel tired.
I have been going out a lot and as I suspected,my brother had to tell my mom about the pack of tobacco he found not too long ago.
Lucky for me,God gave me a smart lying brain and I got away with it.I had the option to tell the truth and I know for a fact that nothing is going to happen if the truth came out,but,I don't want to risk the basic foundation of a family feeling I had bonded with my parents.
Perhaps,next time,if I get busted,I'll probably say it out.

So lately Seb have been trying to get in touch again with me.
I don't know if I feel ecstatic or annoyed.I'm happy he's making an effort to keep in touch from God knows where he is now,but I'm ticked off by the fact that he's only doing it now,when the distance is probably million of miles away.
Nevertheless,at least I can count on one more person if the world decides to fuck me up someday.

*sighs*
Well,I got kind of messed up lately.Just with myself.
My brain and feelings is working in the most retarded of ways.haha.
The person I maybe falling for has been a stranger,and that is all that I will remember him as.
I am getting worried cause our conversation has been nothing but boring.I want it to be kept alive.I want to know everything about him.I want to unreveal him bit by bit but I just can't be bothered if he doesn't make a move either.
I have a massive ego,but I am willing to give in if he shows more enthusiasm.So far,the reaction I get from him is zilch,maybe that is because we are chatting almost every other day.
He talks to me about his possible future life,he makes me decide for him,and I'm here wishing he'd stop.He breaks my heart but I still care what he thinks.haha.

Ah well,I need to forget about him once and for all.Cause like many others,he's only going to break my heart.
And I will once again move on to another bloke.
Thats the typicality of my life,it is always constant.
And for the record,a person I call best friend had to insult me after what I've been through with them.Its very uncanny.I thought I could count on that particular person when I had troubles of my own,but who am I kidding.
I was greatly disappointed but I couldn't do much but shake my head in utter disbelief.
I was crushed in case you wondered.
Till then,I'm off.
Love.Appreciate!
P.s:you are just not the same.