Growing up process.

So I finally knew what I wanted to know and it certainly hasn't been easy for me so far but this time,I mean it,I am going to move on already.
Seb was good as it gets,but I'm sure this world has tons others who are better.
I talked to him about the old times and we both tackled the questions we had for each other like matured adults.I might have rubbed a spot and made it hard for him but he knew why I reacted that way.
The time apart that I had was no healing session,he very well knew it was tough on me.
I'm glad he understood but he knew he is still a part of my life.
A figure so hard to get rid off.He was my special guy,and I was his special girl and knowing this is enough for me to go on about life and go at it with full of pleasure now.

Moving on,yesterday I almost had a secret rendezvous with someone.Lol.
I was so close to losing a BIG PART OF ME but I told myself to get a grip.
The flirting and seduction was so hot I couldn't handle it!
hahaha.
He respected my well being and I respected his wit.He was sweet as can be,a total jerk for all I care but he might as well be good enough to be a friend with benefits.
I liked the whole idea.
We have planned it all out but we need the time we have to carry it out.
It was hilarious in the beginning and I realize I am maturing as a woman and my needs maybe private but he was a good candidate to talk about my current situation with.
I know I will fall for him eventually but I don't want it to spoil what we've planned ahead for us.

Never in my life have I thought that this day would be hitting me on my face and it did.
I could have never done it or talk aboout it with anyone else and here I am talking to some 23 year old male slut.
Hahaha.He is as genuine as it gets.And I'm glad I found him under unfortunate circumstances.
Wish me luck guys and hey!
The SAF paramedic assistant training is a wonderful experience!
The SAF lecturers are a great bunch and it was physical! It was awesome. :D
I had a group mate I couldn't keep my eyes off! If you know what I mean,har har har!
Till then,till then.
Take care earthlings.Miss me.Need me.I'm around.
Love.Appreciate!
P.s:If its time,I will have you anywhere I want you.