I have yet to tell her to update the content page and try saving it in a disc to be submitted this coming Monday.All of need the grade.We SHOULD hand it in by Monday,by hook or by crook.
And Mari,I hope you had a good birthday!or not,I wouldn't know.
Well,I got home early yesterday,
I put my bag down,laid down on the bed and didn't wake up until about 0730 in the evening cept to give Monty a text saying I fell asleep and didn't meet her,and continued sleeping anyway.In my uniform.
It was the longest sleep all week by far and I still feel tired afterwards.
I don't know what is wrong with me sometimes.
I watched Jersey Shore at midnight and my brother helped to get rid of a lost moth who got in our house with a broom.I was literally screaming for him to not kill it,but get it out of the house anyway.It was chaos for a dead midnight situation.My mom just shook her head as she tuck herself in bed.
After which,I tried to study.
All I could afford to do was read but not understand the sentences.Nothing was being absorbed.I than took a glance around the house and saw my "art tools".
I tried drawing-doodling-sketching but my mind seems to be elsewhere too.In the end all I did was draw a small stencil of "be love",Jason Mraz's new fore-arm tattoo and put it between my Tabbner for inspiration's sake.Not to mention three strips of Chris Haslam's name,the man of my dreams.har har har.
Exam is around the corner,and I am not making any effort to flip through my notes and texts I've been given.I feel disinterested after the discovery of my dream weeks back.
Its like I am doing something I wasn't meant to be doing,but than again time is constrained.
I don't have the best of energy and strength to make up my mind.I just want to make a difference in my life.
Something that I have always dreamt of doing is within reach and I'm letting it off the hook cause I'm doing something that is pleasing everyone.Everyone but myself.
I wish I could have done something to change this,but I am thinking of everyone else and I am actually considering of making their hopes a reality.Which is not even close to bad but would I be able to live my everyday life doing the same thing,doing the same routine over and over again?
Well,I guess I have to try and make it work if I still don't know what I should be doing when the time finally ceases out.
I should have decided a long time ago.I should have worked hard for it.
But I'm not going to regret it.It was an intended mistake that I've got to live in,for years,for good.
Ah well,I'm going to have myself a good Saturday.I'm not going to let anyone ruin it.
Syed and Ifan,I'll see you two in hell!!
I'm not going to be all childish about it,I just don't want to talk to you guys for good.
Don't give up for all I care,it doesn't bother me. And I don't give a fuck about your apologies, I thought you guys were friends,I believed you guys. And for the record, who would have thought nineteen year olds who had been my friend since I was 13 could be such a penis.
I will let this pass but you guys are no longer my friends.
Love,Appreciate.
P.s:I thought it was going to be different,but you're proving to be the same.
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