You're got yourself a disgusting Dick-Pussy.

Buto.
Perangai takmo pentingkan nonok-konek uh.
Sekejap cakap lain,lagi sekejap cakap lain.
Pepek sia kau.
Padehal boleh cakap dalam tepon si binawe tu ada,kau takmo nak step sandiwara uh.
Fuck you and you and you.

Fucking Sunday.
I hate the weekend when I get up so late in the afternoon with no text messages or miss calls.
And than I make up my own kind of plans and stood myself up.
Than I make plans with others who only lets me down.
What a bloody cibai.

And its not really helping in any sort of way,my current well being is not as dandy as it seems.
I am feeling down and it deteriorates on each fucking day that pass me by.
There is deep sense of gloom cracking up through every layers that exist within me,wanting to come out and destroy me.
I know how this sounds ridiculous,like some kind of psycho poet trying to get his point across but truthfully,I am feeling like shit.

My family is fine.
My friendships are alright,I don't know.Maybe losing a couple of people here and there.
But I don't give a shit bout that.
People come and go,no?
And my love life,non-existent.
David has hooked up with some chick and soon he'll be doing it like rabbits.
And he's gonna rub it in my face about him getting some'.
Unnecessary information-self declared pleasure.

Its only going to piss me off some more.
But we've not talked for quite some time and I miss him.
His fucking annoying self and he doesn't text me anymore now that he has a girlfriend.
I wish his girlfriend would die,thats too harsh.maybe break up with him.haha.
I need my asshole back to help me fight off this fucking feeling.

I'm not depressed or anything,Just greatly upset for no reason.
Ok,Maybe there is a few reason but its not so important and I don't understand why I am being a total prick to myself.
I need someone who can just sit and shut up while I vent and vent and vent.
And than pretends to care and nod away.
After which,I will cool down and enjoy a piece of the fucking fag and slowly but deeply inhale the shit through my lungs and destroy every bit of my cell away.

I don't know what is up with myself.
I am easily angered,my patience wearing thin and soon,someone,somehow or rather would get emotionally hurt by me.
My vocabulary in my head is not all pleasant words nowadays.
I'll "fuck!" you in the face when I want to.
I'll nudge you in the rib when I can and call you names cause I can.
Its fucking ridiculous whats happening to me.

Now,
I wish its the hormones,but it isn't..
Been this way for a good couple of days.
I wish I had a gun and a courage strong enough to pull the trigger as I place it on my head.
Gone.

Hate,Appreciate!
P.s:You're like beer.Taste like shit but you make me feel good.