The not so genuine smile,the forced laughter and the can't be bothered response disguised so perfectly.
The crumbling wall turns to rubbles beneath me,
The red turning nothing but grey.
And hypocrisy is getting so over-rated that its running in my own blood.
The world mocking me with voices barely audible.
My friends giving me the sneer of a look and a silent jeer,
My family trying to support with an invisible effort-equivalent to zilch.
and my own faith wearing thin,my beliefs diminishing and my very self,
almost moulding with the constant cigarette smoke I blow.
What the hell is happening?
I'm not too keen to know,
your name in my mind making me gag,
my heart exploding in the biggest of cavity present in me,
crying out loud for somebody,anybody to come near and reach out..
Choking as I try saying out your name,
figuring the reason was you,
fearing its got to be you,
secretly wanting you..
I am nothing but a big fat cow in a big messed up world called,life.
Another reason to keep living anyway.
Hate,Appreciate!
P.s:It was so long ago,why does the wound site hurt still?
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