Don't speak,Don't smile at me.

I'll be in school for SIMS training tomorrow.
I have not done my "homework" but fuck it,If I get called up for the role play,I'll play it by guts.
Anyways,
I had my hair done up today,Just for a silly change.
I felt light and neater.haha.
And zits are popping up after that one bloody day I put on the mask -.-

So,Yesterday at the ward,
I didn't feel like talking to much people.Just because.
I have been hating the environment so stop asking why I am acting like a real douche,capishe?
I don't like being a two-faced fuckhead and I don't like talking about other people,I try not to unless they really get on my nerves.
The conversations we had has been nothing but "Oh!You know _____ is such a ____!"
and than you go on about another friend,so why don't you not be such a dork and tell them you don't like the way they are straight to their face?
Isn't it better that way?
If I don't like what you're doing or saying,I'll show it.
Its not about having an attitude,Its about pulling myself away from your kind of conversation cause my ears are getting sore from listening.

So well,yeah.
My throat is itchy as hell,and I wish I could shove my whole damn fist down my lungs,take them off and wash the phlegm off and give my throat a good scrub!
I need to get better.Or else I'll be grumpy as hell.
haha.

And I've been thinking to myself,I've not properly fallen head over heels for anyone for two good damn years.It is scary how I have not been in love for that long.haha.
Of course the undying crush of Ethan Embry,Joey Westwood,Jake Richardson,Ray Lamontagne will forever live on.haha.
I have pretty much figured out how much I would do and care for the person I will next have a relationship with.Half my heart,and the other half has to come from him so if the relationship won't work,we both has equal effect on each other.
And;
There would probably be late nights out,beer and smokes in hand,good fun times and
mutual understanding that is unspoken but it rings loudly in each other's heart and mind.
Intertwined hands doesn't prove love,constant affections is too over-rated and sex is just another bonus to spice the relationship,just don't spread STD's while you're at it.
Someone comfortable to be around with,someone who doesn't mind stinky morning breaths,who doesn't mind smoking for breakfast and seeing zit cream on my face while waking up next to me in the morning.
Someone,who hands down,appreciates and accepts me for who and what I am all about.
Cheese.
:)

So till next time.
Cheers.
Hate,Appreciate!
P.s:Heart stone cold,I don't fucking care anymore.