you,in my pocket.

You keep coming like the wind.
Sometimes you come on strong,sometimes subtly but the fact that i still feel you,
what does that imply?
I think about you still,i won't deny that.
Mom told me at an age when I'm old enough to think for myself and than if i fall in love,i will fall hard and when things go wrong,i will fall harder.I'm starting to believe her.
I am already moving on,i am already slowly,but surely letting every bit of you go..
But you come back into my life,right in my face and it makes forgetting you impossible.
You said "stop caring" i did.
You said "you will be ok without me" i believed you and i did.
You said "you will,if you try hard enough,forget about me" you lied.
I'm not pouring my hearts out about you,I'm over being hung up on you,but i still miss you.
I miss you so much its starting to hurt.
I remember whats it like to see your ever so patient face lighting up when you see me after hours of waiting for me by the stairs,
I remember whats it like to hear you whisper "hey hun.hows your day?" and forgetting that you were actually angry with me cause i was fucking late.
I remember whats it like to have you towering over me after that,
I remember whats it like to breathe you in,
I remember whats it like to be in your comforting,warm embrace.
And when times were down,
I remember whats it like to cry in front of you,and having you wipe me tears off with your fingers and looking back into your equally tear-stained eyes.
I remember the little silly fights and your denial over being drunk.
I remember going over and staying with you for hours in the dark just being in love with you.
I remember having you all over me and wanting to have more of your little kinds in this immortal world.
I remember the hellos,i remember the goodbyes.
I won't be able to remember to forget you.
Its been a year and almost 6 months now.
It'll keep getting longer,and further apart but you'll stay.
*sighs*
wherever you are,however you look,whatever you do;
i don't know how much longer i'll wait before something else happens for me but the next time i see you,i will let my feelings be known.
"Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories,
They're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye"