So i won't keep forgetting on what i want to say,what i got to actually do and to just simply remember.
anyways,i woke up at noon today.laid around for a bit more before mom came back.
she didn't cook except for morning's leftover so mom,third brother and i got busy in the kitchen.
made potato wedges,ate hot instant lasagna,oil-soaked french fries,glutinous rice thingy with coconut shavings and things were peaceful.
second brother popped by for a visit too and he had a taste of it all.
than we hung out by the living room,full with food.
than when evening came,i went out for a while to return my extremely over dued books and went back home.thought of buying some rolled cancer sticks but i've got to wait till tomorrow.
i seem detached with my mind.its not in sync lately.
than i laid out all the possible reasons why and i realize,nothing.
i looked back in time and saw the moments spent when i broke down crying over someone whose not related to me,judging whats fair in life or whats not,cutting my hair cause i thought it would make me let go of certain times in my life that i was not so proud of,drinking nights and endless of cigarette smokes filling the air and from founding a friend,it evolved and i had a lover than we became friends again.
its so messed up yet it all make sense.
i don't expect other earthlings to get me,to understand me,to know me,to like me,hate me for all i care,it don't bring me down-it'll only tire you out,do whatever the fuck to make your point across about me just don't fucking be a hypocrite and go around with me having a ball when all you do behind me is fucking talk about the problems i have within me.
ramble jambles.
Juls called.
she had problems,i miss her.
thats all i suppose.
bye.
Love,appreciate!
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