hush,hear it coming.

Its 2 days past Anjang's death anniversary.
Its been 4 months now..
Wherever you are,whatever you do,lets hope we'd meet again soon.
Anyways!
I ran 2 laps and a half today.
It felt good,i vent out my rage,stressors in life and all the fucking things which corrupted my mind away this morning.
My muscles are aching but in a good way.
I only had a couple of hours of sleep last night but i didn't feel too sleepy during classes.
And yes,its a good thing.
Than,
I walked through the rain.
Its been quite a while since i really felt it rest and than slide down my face.
I had a scare,an instant heart twitch and a tear slid down my face during fucking lecture only to realize that i was being punk'd.
You're an asshole for that but my heart remains with you,for now.haha.
And right about now,im feeling terribly cold.
Im waiting for the bloody video to be converted so i can start editing and than i can finish with my fucking project task.
I have yet to shower cause i want to bloody complete my project today.
Tonight.
Whatever it takes.
My temperature is rising,i can feel it burning in my eyes.
Hopefully i'm not going to be down with a fever tomorrow.
My throat is dry and its starting to itch a little.
Possibly caused by the fucking cancer sticks.
If i could descibe death,this might be the last few hours of it.
I'm beyond words exhausted,i got chores to do in a while and my ears are blocked.
Ear blackages equals to not a good sign.
Symptoms of falling sick.
I feel a little happier today.My girls are happy with their lives,and i share the same bit of happiness with them.
But,
I feel slightly left out but i don't care for myself anymore.
I need to make a change.Sooner or later.
I need to get back in shape,possibly 20 kilos lighter and get my hair shaved or something.
I need to start getting pierced,anything to increase my tolerance towards physical pain.
I would get a tattoo if i could but i figured,my whole body would be permanently inked with words which will eventually turn into a composition.hahaha.
So thats out of the question.lol.
Right about now,i'm just going to relax and let things be the way its suppose to be as written in the book of fate.
Take care now,
Love,Appreciate.
P.s:You came discreetly,knocking on my door but i don't know if i should let you in.
I'm too shy,too scared and too judging.