Its not so bad,its a little awful than what i had.

Its a Wednesday today.
I'm looking for trouble with myself.
I came back from hospital about an hour ago and i still have yet to wash up,iron my uniform and sleep.
I am crazy.
Well,anyways.
As soon as i logged on to MSN,
Edd IM-ed me and said "ili,imy,ily!"
sweet thing he is.and he goes on talking about how good of a friend i was to him(doh,chey!haha).
Of course i miss him too.and i'll love him forever.
He's the only male best friend who i am still friend with.
and ;
i told him i will always love him and i will always be his friend as long as he needs me to.
so yeah.
we have not seen each other since months,since Ruo Yu's farewell gathering to be exact.
its been too long,too far apart.
i hope i see him this weekend.but anyways,yeah.
So,nothing much happened lately.
I'm getting better,i hope i am.
I am piling up the stress load in my head to distract myself from thinking about certain unnecessary things.
I met up with my Nana J late last night and got back at a a little 5 minutes before 3 in the morning.Ravi was around too and it was hilarious.They both ought to be together.A perfect match,so lets hope Nana moves out of the current relationship and hop on the ride with Ravi instead.I want her happy,not sad.
i started talking about Panjang,in a not so related to the conversation way and he said
"Aiyo!dey,stop it da..I think you are one of his fans now!" and i stared at him open-mouthed before bursting out laughing in the cold,quiet night.
I am finally accepting the reason to why certain people has to die.Its time and i hope Panjang is really having the time of his life with the angels now.I also hope he'll watch over us all human mankind and protect us from above.
Somehow,i still see his silhoutte as soon as i close my eyes.
The way he looked 2 weeks before his death..
ok,Moving on..
Anyways,the patient i love to stare at has gone back to the asylum.I didn't get to say farewell,but i did spend a bit of time with him.
He is the most greatest thing i have ever experienced in the ward.I will miss him,a lot.
Not to mention,there has been a lot of hu-has in the ward.Its getting on my nerves.
One more week,I will stand it and than lets hope I'm going off to a different ward,or place.
Hrmnn.
Well,i can safely say i am not the same without my girls.
Far,Mari and Zee,i miss you guys so much i can bite a KFC breast meat!
Its horrible without them,really!
When i was in class with them 3,i can look back to them and have a laugh,shed a tear and be sure i get comfort from their endless hugs and warm words.
Now,I look around and all i have is myself,the patients,the staffs that i don't talk to much,Fiza the only person i can relate to a lot compared to the rest of my team mates and i have none of them.
This sucks.
Well,i hope EVERYONE gathers and WE ALL meet up this weekend.
My old-new/recent/vintage friends and acquaintances.
For now,i'll bid goodbye.
I need to wash up,iron my uniform,sleep and wake up early tomorrow.
Take care all,
Love,Appreciate!