Will you ever know?

I read a couple of things on love,i know how redundant it is to be falling for someone who don't know how i actually truly feel for them.
Its hella stupid,hurtful and annoying but yet,i keep on loving the person endlessly.Because everything else seems perfect(though its not) when at least i know,and i try to keep on loving something that means the world to me.
I give up easily,all the time.But this is one thing i can never give up on,not now anyways.
I know i've lost him already..
I tried letting go,nothing's working.
Sometimes,i wish i had the balls to breathe a hint of love to him.
Everyday is mysterious,unexpected.There has been too much experiences of deliberate happenings to not be afraid of the last moment.
I am scared of the next minute,hour.I am scared of tomorrow.
Why am i getting all mushy and romantic in a sudden?I wouldn't know.
this is not me,never me..
I wish one day,if there was a chance,even for a little while,
I want to feel what it would be like having my arms wrapped around you,and vice versa.
I am not even close to perfection,i am full of shit and crap loads of other stupid stuff and
even if you wouldn't give me a chance,
a little piece of me still goes out to you..
Cause,once upon a time,not long ago,
I fell for you,
I fell hard.
The tears i shed,the sleepless nights i spent thinking of you and the certain things i do,i did it for you.
You just never knew,cause i wouldn't tell you.
Sometimes,i wish i could look into your eyes,and without the need to say anything,
with the perfect silence that overcomeus both,
you will understand why i see you the way i did today.
I find myself in deep thoughts of you,i'm not going mental,i'm still sane..
I'm always thinking of you.
I wish you well,i wish you happiness and it hurts when you think you're not important.
Cause when the world turns its back on you,i will still wait,and stand at the edge of the road call hope,waiting for you to come and land your head on my shoulder..
I never felt like this before,i will always be near you somehow,i can feel it..
I just know it..
Though it is not thoroughly the reason why i'm being this unreal;
the reason is?
Well its you..