At the edge but holding on.

sipping on my coffee which was made this afternoon and sitting in front of my computer thinking what i have been doing with my life so far..
i've been pretty dead pathetic for the past 17+ years of my life.
well,earlier tonight i went out to meet Monty,the plan was to go to the library but her mom claimed that it would be closed so we went to hang out instead.
Apparently,she has found that my blog is being all to mushy and romantic-ish but Hey!its a whole new experience in being in love for me ;)
Over honey milk tea,double cheeseburger and small french fries and for her rojak,we sat and talked about stuffs from a failing relationship to how complicated life can be.haha.
it is always nice to see Monty,with her unexpected personality on each different days.
So,well,tomorrow,i MIGHT be meeting up with a couple of classmates like Ruo Yu,Hui Yin,Edd,Bob,Asip and Sam for the 'so-called' final farewell to Ruo Yu since she's not coming back to Singapore after her visit here this month.Kind of sadded by the fact and of course i will present myself for her tomorrow.lols.
She's such a ball of fun,the pineapple haired girl who has big huge eyeballs.I love her. :')
Hrmmn,anyways..
i was doing some thinking about my future.lol.
in this near coming years,i am thinking of getting myself a secured stable job before i continue with my studies.i want to save up some cash,get myself a well deserved vacation and sit back and enjoy the ride to my first experience on an airplane.
i wish to go anywhere in Europe,and hopefully,get the chance to visit Italy cause that is one place i'd like to see before the world ends,or before i die.
i told my mom about my endless hope of getting married to an Arabic man and all she did was sigh and shook her head.haha.
Oh well,life is full of surprises,lets just see whether i'll end up living up to my hopes and wishes some fine day..
But,there is one thing i would definitely want to do and it is,
to be able to sing in a bar/pub or anywhere with a cool,casual atmosphere for people to sit,chill out and dine with friends or family while i sit on a 5 inch platform on a stool,whereby i would sing my whole heart out with a live band accompanying my not so nice voice.lol.
i would trade anything i have to do on that fortunate day to be able to do just that.I'm sure my life would be a quarter contented :)
while blogging,Edd suggested(through IM-ing) that we both sing the song 'lucky' and record it!how suhweet is that?haha.we might,just wait and see xD
hrmmn..
imagine time;
sleeping on a bed with someone special.
than he wakes up at 8 in the morning,light up a cigarette and starts strumming his guitar randomly.
with one hand pressing on chords and the other,balancing a cancer stick while strumming/picking on the guitar.
i wake up to hear him hum a song from 'the cranberries',linger.
i watch his back,since he is sitting with his backs on me and i smiled to myself with the thought,
"i'm blessed to be woken up by an angel.."
and he'll turn around to see me awake,and he puts down the guitar and smooth my hair and apologized for waking me up.
and i smile some more saying
"i'd be the happiest woman to be waking up to hear the voice of an angel sing every morning.."
imagine time over.
haha.how nice would it be right?lols.
so yeah,thats my time for blogging today.
i'll blog again about what will happen when i meet up with the rest later on in the day.
till then,take care,
toodles!
Loves.