Random rattle.

Hours ago i met Monty(again,hahahahahaha!)
but,she brought someone cute,huggable and such a heart breaker he is.
you know who?Abdullah,her cute baby brother!haha.
he's soooo cute i can bring him home,cuddle him till he runs out of breath and as a nurse-to-be,resurrect him back to life.lols.
So,we went to get my mom some kernel corns,got her to deposit some money before chilling at a nearby place near hers and shortly later,the boys(her second unrelated teenager brothers who is severely non-related) came,haha.
After about 15 minutes later we part ways.
Today is simply a boring day,well not boring,more of a routine;
wake up,watch Tv,drink coffee,eat,watch Tv,get on computer,text,dink coffee,eat,laze around-kind of life.haha.
So yeah,kinda rained a little which made the water icy cold,perfect for a refreshing evening shower.haha.
urrmmn,i've made plans tomorrow so i'll be rather busy,i think.haha.
Going job hunting,job interviewing(me and Monty was personally being called by a company-we didn't look for them,they looked for us!we're that precious!or maybe not.haha) and possibly hanging out big time.And if God makes it happen,my ever dearest,short,hairy,extremely fair male friend,Edd will be joining us.haha.(my fingers are crossed,and you guys can bet whichever ways you want).lols :D
So,i kind of want this post to be for all the people i've met,known and had close or non-close relations with.
I just want to let you guys know that i know i am not a perfect living-breathing human being.
I used to be nice,i used to be timid,i used to shy away from reality and put on a fake emotion mask but that all changed since i was 14+.
I realize how cruel the world can be and money was not an option,its life.But,i know i don't need that much money to be happy,i need friends who could be there for me like times;
when i broke up with my boyfriend(if i even find one),when my parents are being a total nag and when my brothers are being proper jerks as well as,some friends who have managed to step all over my head.
I need friends to be by my side to tell me,
"yes,your boyfriend is a man slut for dumping you" Or in rare cases "you're so stupid that even an ant knows better than to dump your boyfriend","your parents are growing old,its life" OR "as a daughter,you should listen to them,they are right","your brothers are losers,they can't even feed themselves properly to say such fucktard things about you." OR"your brothers are right,you are fat,stupid and behave like a monkey!".
Whichever ways,i need friends who has my heart with them though we don't see each other often.
I have a few who has their heart in mine and i can safely say that no matter how much i've changed,physically or personality wise,i am accepting your well-being as it is and if you need a shoulder to cry on,cry,but don't ruin my shirt.If you need an honest opinion,i'll give one,but don't cry or object to what i have to say and if you need one hell of a good time,try cliff jumping.
There are some friends whom i respected so much before,whom i thought was the kind of sister i wish i had and now,the level of respect for her is nothing but how similar i see her a a piece of turd.Which is also equivalent to me saying,i don't need such friends anymore because i realize it wasn't a heart-to-heart friendship,it was mostly verbal and hypocrism was the main deal.
Ok,i have probably lost track of me wanting to say what i wanted cause all my frustration are building thinking about some friends i wish i could kill but i don't want to mess up my by far 'clean-free-criminal-record' except for once when i blew up some fire crackers which almost injured others.haha.
So with that said,to friends im still talking,i love you all and i mean it.I'll be here for you as long as i'm still breathing but don't go mad at me cause i can't meet you.Sometimes i don't have cash in my EZ-link to travel and most of the time,i'm just a busy,busy woman.
haha.
Sayonara guys,
Adios!
P.s:i miss Mr dear whoever <3>