Valentine this time

.:Like the train tracks which leads somewhere,i will find my way to my kind of happiness somehow. :.

Today is the day for family,friend and lovers.
Valentine's,wow.
I still don't have a date for the 17+ years that i have been alive but i'm sure i celebrate harder,and better than the people who do have a date.
lols.
I don't wine and dine,give chocolate kisses(yet) and say those three words without meaning.
I actually mean those three bloody words,'I Love you'.If i do say it to you,i mean it and that you are appreciated for always.
So anyways,i've given myself sometime to think and i think i need to let go.
My feelings for him. .
There seems to be too much impossibilities and i guess,i'll just love and hurt in silence.lols!
I don't think he likes me like that.. :(
I need to withdraw myself slowly from our time together and i guess the rest will follow suit(i guess).
After all,this beats nothing than the hurt i've been through before,though i know i will never be as sure of my feelings as i will ever be.
Its impossible to reach for the stars to make a pavement which goes to your heart..lol!
I will not be good enough,i will not be able to satisfy your need as someone who loves you and most of all,i know i won't get as much love back from you..
I'm way off your league..
Well anyways,on a higher note,Fazli has asked me out!lols.
This sounds crazily weird.I laughed my ass off so much when i was talking to him on MSN this morning as he popped out the question.Reason being because "i really miss you.."
hahaha.I think he forgot his medication but the hell,i'll probably ask NanaJ out with us too. :D
What else,what else..
Oh,yeah!Yesterday i went out to meet Sam to get my stuff with Edd.
Edd brought out Sam's N'level painting board and her uniform and shoes which i held for him.He was being such a sweetie to do that la horr.lol.
After meeting Sam who was pretty late,we went to Bugis and she asked me what to get for Hugo,her bf.
She had wanted to get him a T-shirt which caused more than my underpants(LOL) and personally,i told her,its too new to get him something expensive even though he's the kind who would spend for quality material.So,i told her to get him some chocolates instead,and if she complied to my suggestion or not,i will ask some other day.haha.
With that said,when Hugo,Edd and i was alone,i told Hugo that she would like to have flowers and he answered "yeah i know,she told me that." and i laughed.lols.
I've never gotten along so well with my friend's bf before,especially not when my friend has only been in a 2 week old relationship.He is funny as hell,annoying like my brothers and most importantly,she makes Sam happy.Thats all that mattered!
Than when Edd and i went back home in the bus,we chatted like no body's business until he was about top alight and he got annoyed cause he couldn't find his EZ-link card.he text me to check it out for him if he had dropped it on the floor but i see no sight of it.And when i was about to alight,i had wanted to put my mobile phone in my jeans pocket but it slipped and it fell down to the back seat and i made some guy who was sleeping wake up to get me my phone!lols.i felt sorry for the man but,the hell!haha.
And than shortly later,Edd called and he said that his EZ-link card was in his wallet,coin department and i'm like "WHAT THE HELL!!" lols.
Hrmmn,well thats all folks,will blog again soon i guess..
To love,to friendship and to family ties..
xoxo