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Wow.
Its been ages since I last ranted on this-my special blog here.
Life's been miserably busy since I started paying for my own expenses.Hahaha.
Well,I didn't come by to rant so much,more like an update in case people like 'you' seem to be wondering why the fuck I hadn't posted anything since October last year.Haha.

Well,things in life haven't been all smiles and joy for me.
Twenty-eleven was full of bullshit and I predict the same for this twenty-twelve.
Main reason; the love of my life(I'm being a little exaggerated) is going away for two years to work in Saudi~Jeddah and he's only coming home probably once or twice a year.
And that for me is like probably 24 months of random tears,heartaches and billions of 'I miss you'.
He's going away pretty soon now and I don't know how to feel anymore.I am done being mad at him for weeks,probably months after he told me the news of his departure.I can't be sad anymore cause the more I think about it,the more unhealthy I think it would be.So in all my pretense of trying to assure him that I'll get over it,I am actually,secretly,feeling like being abandoned all over again.
17 months of love,pain,joy and probably a pinch of depression later,we are putting our relationship on a hiatus.Somehow or rather,in between the two years we're apart,I'm pretty sure thoughts and feelings may develop or diminish. Hmmn..
I'm keeping my mind open on long-distance relationship but hey,if its meant to be,its meant to be,huh?

Even if it doesn't work out in the end due to existing,or future existing issues,I don't think I ever regret anything that I have share and experienced with my boyfriend.
He had the balls and guts to smother me with affection and patience and God bless him,he's a sweetheart underneath those unmatchable exterior.

My family has been extremely hard to deal with but only time will tell.
His family on the other hand,is so accepting of me.
I wish I could split myself into two and make both party happy.

There goes my life story,hahahaha.
I can't think of anything else to add on.
Till then.

Love,Appreciate.