About time.

For what has happened,I won't regret.It happened by choice and it is natural for things to happen the way it did.We were too carried away by our separate euphoria.I foresee that it would happen,but this soon didn't cross my mind.Nevertheless,at least I know how we both see it as now.
Dearest,stop apologizing..
I'm glad it happened the way it did.

Mom was away on Saturday and I had to bump in for YOG.
NSC is miles away from the civilised road.Ok I'm exaggerating,but there is no public transport nearby to get there.I ended up walking for maybe a good kilometre when I reached Marine Parade and a half before hailing for a cab.I was proud of myself cause I was alone!I was even alone when I reached Redhill the day before,and I bumped to Hani there.So anyways,when I reached NSC I walked a good bit more and sat opposite the medical room.Wahahaha.Thats when I saw Ikin and THANK GOD someone I know was around.I presumed that the day was going to get awkward and long but thankfully,it didn't.It happens that Rabbani and a few others are around too.All were lung killers except one.Too awesome.
Anyways,I got home a little before seven and texted Din vie web-sms.He called me up and wanted to meet at 8!Its impossible so I told him make it around 8++,wahahaha and I reached 15 minutes before 9 at his place.He wasn't around.So I waited until 5 minutes past 9 and I turned to my right and saw him.With his black shirt and black berms,He looked half annoyed and half glad I'm there.Apparently,he left the house 5 minutes past 8 and 5 minutes after,subsequently until I got there.hahahahah!
So we cycled to Pasir Ris(take note that I rode on his mom's bicycle,wahaha) and spent the night together.I had a good time.
Times we shared are spent on silly fights-arguments,dead serious talks and deep within me I can't lie anymore.I want to spend my remaining times I have left now with him.
As easily as he can make me cry with his sharp words,he makes me feel better again with the comfort he is naturally generous with.And like what he's said before,the only problem between us is my hesitance to voice out my actual feelings towards him.Wahahahaha.
I just don't trust myself enough to trust another person I should be in love with.I have too little faith in myself but abundance for others which makes it unbalance.
He's made me the happiest woman for the past month and time flies by so fast..Sighs.

The man who have really looked me in the eye and said he truly cares,truly loved me for me.
The man I've enjoyed talking,arguing and having fights with.
The man whose taught me so much in life littlest test compared to the biggest hurdles he's gone through.
The man who would do anything in impulse but knows better so thinks before he even speaks his mind.
The man I enjoy cuddling up with when the nights gets cold.
The man who would shower me with the superficial things he thinks I care about,which I don't really give a shit about.
The man who wants security and stability in his life and not afraid to work his ass for it.
The man who said "When you turn 20,we're going to get engaged.Or even better,I'm going to propose."
The man whose life revolves around music to keep him going or he would've fallen to the blackest of hole and drown.
The man I want to be by with until the time ceases out on me cause he's given me enough reason to laugh,cry,be upset and be merry about.

He's been so patient,so caring and so thoughtful towards me.Made me cry,feel loved and thought about.I guess its only in a matter of time now before I make me decision.A man like him deserves a much better woman than I have been.Oh well,whatever happens,I hope its for the best.Toodles all.
And Happy holiday!
:):)
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:What a feeling.