I'll never be the same.

I slept and continued sleeping yesterday evening and only woke up at about five today.
I stayed out,stayed up all night last two days.I was with Mari and Zee.
Far didn't come at all,despite the coaxing and whats not.It made me pissed cause she promised a whole lot of shit to me but she ended up bailing out on us with an excuse we three were doubtful of.Initially I didn't want to keep in touch but after some serious thinking,I texted and told her how I felt,how the other two feel too.All she said was sorry and that she swore she'd be around for the next outing.And deep inside,I just couldn't be bothered to believe her anymore.
My whole life,its about being tossed and turned around.pulled and pushed around,brought up and that slammed back to the ground.
I'm sick of this shit.
Well anyways,the stay out I had with the other two had been fun.
We were at the place all of love to hang out at,the beach at East Coast.
Mari's mom cooked us delicious dishes and even fetched me to go to the designated place.
Mari chose a spot underneath a shady tree,and later did we know that the tree actually has a disguise.
Cause despite of it being shady and sorts,it was actually a killer tree.hahaha.
There were fruits,falling at possibly 70km/h and the impact is hard,really hard.
But we weren't troubled by it,so it was fine.The only thing we were concerned of was the houseflies and other mother fucking bugs.lol.
And when bedtime came(only after four), I was the only one who couldn't shut my eyes.I was too hyper,too anxious to wait for the sun rise and it paid off at about seven fifteen/seven thirty in the morning.
It was glorious.
The sun shines the whole wide world and its amazing how the only big ball of fire works.
Than noon came so I bade goodbye to the other two woman and I walked my way through the rain for the nearest bus stop.It wasn't as far as I thought it would be.When I got in a bus from East Coast,the bus driver kept looking at me through the mirror,I think I looked suspicious cause my bag was stuffed,and it looks like I have something that shouldn't be there.
But he just smiled when I pass him to alight the bus.
Than,when I finally got home,the familiar feeling of comfort swept me off my feet almost immediately.
I showered,had some food and fell asleep before Maghrib and didn't wake up till about eleven at night to read a text from Anjang(yes I miss him tons!) and went to bed again to wake up at ten plus this morning.And after a quick snack,I went to bed on and off again and finally showered at about almost six int he evening.
My body is all stiff and I'm going to mee Monty shortly.
Har har har har.
My plan was to actually go out for a jog but maybe tomorrow,I'll be more hyped up.
Till then,take care mothalicka'!
Loves,Appreciate!
P.s:I thought you're going to prove me wrong,but you're the same.
The same.