One of the many pet-peeves I have in people.
I was in need of a companion,where were you?
I was sick and scared for my life,where were you?
I needed a time to laugh,where were you?
And I realize you look for me when the list of thing you haven't done for me,
you wanted me to fulfill for you.
I'm not trying to be anal about this whole situation but sometimes,
I kiss too much ass in this life that people want me to start licking them already.
Of course I appreciate those little small favours you did for me but I felt like you never appreciate me enough,as much as you often say you did.
I love you whole-heartedly,my mom thinks its stupid but I didn't care cause I thought you would be different.
I sacrificed what I thought I've always wanted in my life and gave it away to you,thinking its not comparable to what we have shared before.
And here I am,left with nothing but my sorry self and you,with my everything.
I don't regret knowing you,the things I've done for you and I don't expect anything in return,honestly.
All I ask from you is to be there,give me the little bit of respect I think I very much deserve and stop trying to belittle me cause if you see yourself in the mirror,you're not any better.
I still love you,I just need you to see whats going on.
ANYWAYS;
I am feeling like crap.
I am having a temperature cause my eyeballs are stinging,
my nose is blocked for now but it will run like Niagara Falls later when my head hits the pillow and my chest feels like someone who weighs a thousand pounds has sat on it.
I can't even smell anything,what more to taste anything.
And I'm not alone feeling like this,Nana is apparently feeling under the weather like me.
I met her today,went to the beach at Pasir Ris.
Saw a fat ass bull dog which looked so adorable but I'm still fucking terrified with any kinds of dog species.
Saw a couple trying to pitch a tent when the wind was blowing hard,obviously stupid but they managed to get it done an hour and a half later.
Saw middle aged guys with pudgy tummies working out on a game of football or two.
Catching up with my Nana and it has been a ball,like how things were since five years ago.
When we finally parted ways,
my head kind of felt light and airy.
Not in the physical way.
Like stoning but I was sure it was more intense than it usually are.
Oh well,nothing is better than to entertain someone until I got tired and fall asleep like last night.
Ridhwan was watching football and I was bored online.
Entertained each other through text messages until my eyelids gave up on me.
Urmn so,
Tomorrow I'm going to rehab!
A cool schedule this upcoming week,for five days straight!
And possibly meeting Abang semut or maybe not-since he claimed that he's got free evenings to spare.
lol!
Till then suckers,
Cherish;remember.
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:Ready to fall?
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