kicking it back.

To an evening like this,311,is the best companion to have for a chillaxing time.
So today I started rehab,Its not as happening as being in the ward,
but I had fun playing Bingo and hearing jokes from some of them folks,as well as NECESSARY advises.
Well,I'm starting to cough a lot now.
My insides are shaking,har har har.
The core of my brain is doing this weird somersault and its slightly affecting my sight cause I'm squinting.
So with that said I'm going to rattle dattle a little;

Its been long enough.
I suppose all I need is closure.
To hear you state out all the reasons to our end.
I have been generally fine with your absence in my life,almost two years now anyway.
But there is still this deep sinking feeling when I flip through the memorabilia and I see you.
The spontaneous I LOVE YOU on a piece of note pad paper,the brown band you gave me,the sweetest words I could come up with to show you how much you were actually appreciated.
I told myself once before that God took you away cause God wants me to have the best,
but my stubborn brain keeps saying that you were and still are the best.
I told Ridhwan,he said the same thing about my theory on what God wanted for me.
Is it really?
I hope so.
I guess sooner or later this will not necessarily make sense,but it will go away.
I have lived incredibly without you,I still had to breathe but if and when I die,
you'll be one of the few people I'd like to see to your ignorant eyes and I'd say the last and forever farewell and leave you wondering what the feeling you had on your forehead was..
And when you finally realize it,you'll shed a tear or two cause I used to kiss you on your forehead if I mean something I say and that you'll suddenly think about me and than it would be too late.
I know my imagination can get the better out of me and I'm telling myself,quit thinking.
I got a hopefully long life to lead and there will be plenty more heart race and hear breaks in the future for me.
You were merely a sane mistake that I won't regret making.
Ever.
Secretly,I hope you knew.

So till then,
I'll write more,soon.
Loves,Appreciate!
P.s:Don't stop me from looking back.