whats in it for today.

Happy Birthday Panjang.
Well,thats what one of the member of the memorial group which was formed for you has said.
I think you're suppose to turn 24.
But i'm not too sure.
I hope you're having the time of your life wherever you might be.
The ironic part of today is,i got a message from Fir about the 123456789 sequence just the other day and i happen to look at your memorial page and saw one of your friends requesting us to pray for you today,since it was suppose to be your big day.
Sheesh Kebab!
Well,i saw someone who looks like you at work,but he's too short to look like you.haha.
multiple of times.yet,my heart still kind of sank.
I get flashbacks of you,the way i saw you 2 weeks before you went off to be with the Superior one.
It still sucks you know..
Ah well,I hope today's going to be a good day since its your Big Day!
I'll try and celebrate and have a good time for you.
I miss you,we all miss you,always will and always do.
Just please,if you're listening to what i've been saying to you through the wind,in the toilet,in my dreams,
Ask God if theres any more vacnat spaces up there,cause I'm so ready to travel way up there.I want to say "hi" to you.
And than travel on the fluffiest of clouds,bouncing on them in the astronaut's way and visit all the people who was gone too soon like you.
So,a note to myself;
Breathe less,be a tad happier and live as though i might die in the next second.
Amen.
And my friends,
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:this is not parasuicidal.this is thinking out loud.