rain meets umbrella

I went to Oncoming Tragedy's gig on Saturday.FAD studios is so much better than ODIOCRIB,with ample space and pretty kick-ass sound system.But,however,i think,even though 98% of the time i spent my time sitting outside the place,i'm pretty sure the big deal wasn't on the performers.but more of the gig-goers.They were hardcore-dancing(which looked pretty weird for a dance to me) and to me,it looked like a painful dance routine.haha.painful for me,because it looked hilarious.Anyways,the set before Oncoming Tragedy's,there was this band which were playing and their music is pretty good too.But,Monty and i thought that what made the band sounded good was the fact that the vocalist is pretty cute!i'm sure he has 'white bloodedness' in his body.haha.he had those 'Jason Mraz' hat on,a sleeveless shirt and a pair of tight jeans.haha.and he too was part of the hardcore dancing manifesto.lol.i had spent my time there pretty well i guess.i talked to Alex(he is Chinese la!),the guy i never thought i could carry out a conversation with cause he looked introverted with his too little too skinny body frame.and than i hung out with Ikhwan when most of them were inside.i met Juli too and i told Monty that at the thought of her name,it irks me(for no reasons why) but when i see her,my heart just melt and i succumb myself to 'i actually love her' mode.i mean,i have some of my ups and downs with her,went out with her multiple times,hugged & kissed her millions of times and wiped her tears & held her hands when she was sad and confused.and as much as i want to avoid any sort of drama from her,hands down,i actually do love her and i need to play the part of being a good friend,sister and a listening ear if she still happens to need me some time in the future.i also saw Shafiq(emo-meets-indie-boy) around Bugis area and we had a little update about each other's lives.and that pretty much summarizes what happened on that Saturday,April 4th.
Well,as i'm blogging now,it has officially been a 3:05 wee morning of a Monday.I had to blog,i told myself that and so here i am now,sleepless.haha.So,yesterday,a Sunday's turn.
I had a lazy,lazy Sunday.A proper Sunday i would say.I woke up quite early,walked around my house to see that 2 of my brothers are asleep and dad left for the hospital and came back at around noon.and than dad came back and,he too,went to sleep.after listening to some Good Charlotte,i switched on to Channel 5 and saw "That thing you do" playing.I was enthralled by the discovery of course and sat diligently on my bed watching it.I have seen the movie for 98475643724625425 times and yet,i'm still almost always delighted to watch it again and i even say the words along after much memorized dialogues from certain scenes.lol.After which,i went to clear the newspaper mess on the dining table and found an almost touching article about coping with deaths and leaving behind the loved ones.Inspirational,breath-takingly beautiful and of course,sad.I loved the article so much i think i would keep it with my other collectibles.Anyways,Mom wasn't around the whole day and the household was foodless.So what did i eat?An ice-cream and two slices of bread with butter spread.Pathetic?you betcha!And than later in the evening i met Monty and i asked her to accompany me to TMall to get some black covered shoes for school but we found none and went hanging out with some food instead.what did i have?a crab meat and cheese filling pizza pocket sorta stuff and bbq mashed potato both bought from 7-11.at about almost 11 we went home respectively.Oh,and while i was on my way to 7-11 with Monty,i met my childhood friend,Andreas.i was elated,but i was too chickened to greet him,so i just kept on chanting his name to Monty and smiled to myself.lol.when i got back,i greeted mom for a bit,and hopped on the computer until now. :)
Earlier,i was talking to David sweety and we had one of the many x-rated conversations,haha,and no,it doesn't involve any cyber-ing.haha,just discussion on certain things.And,to my surprise,Sebastian Wimmer,he came on MSN and talked to me.apparently,he's in KL for vacation and he webcammed himself on me for less than 3 minutes to show off his spectacles and black hair.lol.how did i feel?indifferent.
i did miss him last March but not anymore since April.haha.i have looked to the front and i stop myself from looking back,its for my best,the better.
Urmmn..well,i need to do some rattle tattle.so,bear with me.here it goes;
first of all,in this life on earth,how many times is people given the chance to be and to fall out of love?how many soul mates can one person have?if the answer is one,so how come theres a word called polygamy,divorced and remarry?
-sighs- these kind of questions is usually the reason why i am almost always mood less and often seen as spacing out.lol!i can't help myself.
Oh and i think,it is also time for my social butterfly to flap on to becoming a bird.i need to find and experience what its like to be swept off my feet,in other words,to fall in love again.lol.
i want someone i can pour my guts out to,someone i can show unconditional love to,someone i could kiss until i get myself giddy,get lost in his body scent as i hug him ever so tightly,fight and hit him like he's an asshole,and than make up again and pretend nothing happened,and share my living breathing moment with that special person.i am not ready to get tied down,but i'm ready to get-to-know someone again.this is not desperation,but i think its about time i do seek some company.
when i hear some friends going through a rough patch in their relationships,i don't know how to react.lol.by experience;
i let him vent.and once when we're both cooled down,we talk things out calmly and if his ego get the best of him,reprimand him a little and remind him that he is being self-centered.and when he can't accept the statement,he will vent again,and when both of us cry because either of us started crying,we kiss and make up and pretend nothing's happened.well,that was what happened for me anyway but look where i am now,hahaha.
alone without anyone special but friends.it doesn't really matter as long as i know my few favourite side-kicks are still around and by whom i meant;Nana J &Monty.I am most comfortable with them and i could go on forever about nothingness and still,they would listen and pretend to care.haha.
Ahhh,i miss working in Suntec*coughscoughs*.And now,i need to get some sleep.
My shoulders are starting to ache and my neck is partially stiff.haha.
So,good night,or rational talking,morning.lol.
Take care,
Love,Appreciate!