new environment,new friends,new faces,new life experiences equals to adaptation.
i'm torn between feeling excited and terrified.
i'm going to learn how to save lives,makes a sick person feel better and changing a person't life.
its pretty scary to think that a life will be under my care when i undergo attachment at different medical places.
well in a higher note,i'm sure that what i'm going to do is the most humble,noblest thing anyone could ever provide for a person and like what mom tells me,"Its going to be fulfilling for you and the person you're helping!Do good,you'll understand."
Anyways,i've been hanging out a lot.Life should be like this,chill and entertaining.With my best side-kick,Monty,along with me,everything seems like the way it is suppose to be.
i am most comfortable with Monty.she's seen me in every ways possible.in my most ugliest and never my prettiest cause that was never attainable.lol.we are so much alike but so different.we mirror each other's lives but we are separated souls.i don't know what i'm blabbing about of my gob but i feel most sane and insane with her around.
i'm into such a zen mode right now i don't know what else could be more close to perfect than now.there has been so much less drama,shouting,yelling and fights but the verbal abuse goes on like a broken tape record.i pretend to be deaf,immune cause i don't want it to ruin me.i don't want to hate myself even more because i should be content and that is what i'm all about.
oh well,i'd like to say my piece for that one person who has kept my emotions and its peak and at its lowest for the past 4 months,sweetness,this is about you;
like i always do,i write.
i can go on and write a whole book just about you.
you are so far away yet so close to my life.
i don't feel you near but thats just the best part,
the distance makes me yearn for you even more.
and when the time is set and sealed,
when we will be able to meet,
i will let it loose and uncontrollably let my guts out to you.
i miss you.
i still do.
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