menopause or teenopause?

I've only went out of the house only 3 times this week.
I didn't have any plans,i didn't know what to do and i certainly have lost the control of my emotions.
yes you can laugh at me.
i feel incredibly useless.it is probably because of my o'level result but after thorough conclusion,i am at peace with my result.
i am assuming,its hormonal imbalance again;
but than again,i think its not.
everything i do,every move i make every word i speak and every breath i take,
there is always something,someone which is capable of making me feel nauseous and emotional.
its like a piece of dough,when you touch it,it wont go back to its usual state again.
i feel small(pssyyeaah!) and definitely vulnerable.
its like slowly,the petals of the flowers are wilting,and finally dropping off,exposing the inner self of me which i am so conscious about.
i hope the feeling will pass,just like the almost 18 years of my life..
i have been feeling so detached and frustrated that i have neglected my only friend who gets me and knows how to make me forget my sorrow,David.
i've made him upset and i am twice as miserable.
apart from that,i am financially down.my mom just won't allow me to use my OWN money.how ironic is that?and its not as though i'm going to spend it on something stupid like going to the bars and drink,instead,i want some money to buy my dearest a gift for his 21st!
my heart breaks a little,but i can't whimper cause they will only make fun of me even more..
oh well..
just know that im not in the best of mood today,or rather,this week.
toodles,
Loves!