Gone,so young.

I spent my whole night yesterday checking out a motivational site with post-it notes.
It makes me think about how people are so ignorant about the smallest things which makes life worth living.
Scary thing is,most of us don't give life a minute to reflect back and thank the blissful God for his creations.

Well,as I'm blogging now,my stomach is in a knot.
I think I am physically and emotionally unstable.har har har.
This maybe mean but I just can't stand being at home anymore.
I wish I had school with no lessons(does this make sense at all?).
Just please,stop asking me to do things all the time?
For God's sake its not like I'm the only person there is at home.
Or maybe I'm just being a silly sod and calculative?
I don't mind helping out,giving in at times but from then till now,I have always had this over-whelming sense of bias-ness from mom.
I am nineteen soon and I have grown up enough to know what hurts and what doesn't.
Sometimes she says things that ticks me off so bad but I bite my tongue hard to prevent myself from giving her a piece of my mind.
Sometimes I say it out before thinking and she gets taken aback and camouflages her shock with nervous laughter.
Sometimes I feel like giving up trying to be a good daughter.
Sometimes I cry.
Hahaha.
I'm gay that way.I wish I could connect more with Pops.
I'm always his only girl but he's never around much,and I suck at talking.hahaha.

Well,I'm suppose to go meet Monty but she's upset about something,seems like it.
-.-
Makes me feel stupid is one.haha.

I wish I could hang out all day with Sam,if only she had lived right behind my area like she used to.
Maybe I could talk to her and her baby all day and night and she'll be more than happy to entertain a loser with uneventful days like me.hahaha.
I miss her already and its only been 2 days. :(

Sam,you round lovely woman,take care.
Eat when there is an urge,don't let the baby starve though that is highly unlikely from the appetite I see you have the other night.haha!I miss you woman.
Sunny,I hope soon comes around the corner,we need to hang out,us two and have stupid arguments about nothing at all!
Edd,I love you and don't forget what I said to you.You are a unique person,let people talk,let people hate but you just got to be you.
Far,You have constantly ticked me off but nevertheless,I miss your company when I feel like shit and I know you care,but you are a little weird with your ways at it.haha.
Zee,whatever you do,think with your head and not with your heart's desire.I worry most about you.
Mazi,I'm going to meet you during CP anyway but you got to take care too! hahaha.
And lastly,
Mari,ride safe and thank you for having the telepathy connection thing going on with me.You seem to always know when ?I always need you.I love you.
I love you guys terribly.
Take care.
Love.Appreciate.
P.s: I should start giving myself time.To think,to gather all strength there is to get back up.