comfort bails out.

I was crashing again at Nana's yesterday.
I was reluctant at first but gave in to her endless "adik.." and pouts,besides,it was the weekend.
Spent my yesterday travelling to Bugis and than to Hougang trying to look for the perfect "anniversary" gift.I hate people who are in love,its such a chore trying to find the "monthsary" or "anniversary" gift and than getting mad cause the right gift is not yet found.
But yeah.whatever.
lol.
Nevertheless,yesterday was brilliant.
Nothing else matter when the right person is surrounding you.
So,on Friday,I met Sam!
Ohmygawwd she is growing yes,a lovely kind of fat but her bulge(?) is not showing much.
I kept asking her stupid question cause I was hella knackered and my eyes was pissing the shit out of me and thats my lame excuse of trying to stay awake.
Had dinner together sitting at nowhere as per normal but with other people sitting around too,so it was obvisouly somewhere.Nevermind if you don't get the idea,Edd Sam and I know what I'm talking about so its cool.
I got myself two double cheeseburger and holy mother of rats,it has never tasted so good.
har har har.
Sam had Long John's and while eating we talked about life after marriage and how her "activity" has been and of course,the norms of bitch talking about someone we both particularly know.
Its hilarious and when the night came to haunt me down(LOL),I got home in the bus and my bum has never been that sore.One hour of bus ride is a killer,but for this situation,
it was worth every minute of it. [Sweet or what!!]
Supposedly today,Sam asked me out again today,to let me meet her tiny half sister,Rachel.
That was actually why I travelled all the way last Fridayto her area but,tiny Rachel had to go home too soon.
There's always a next time I hope and I can't wait to meet Sam again and hopefully that little tiny thing,Rachel.
There goes all the general details.

Lets get a little personal now..

Honestly,I am mentally drained.I have no idea why.I am pretty much close to being ignorant about everything else in my life.School is tomorrow and a week back,I was excited and now,I feel like I can't stand it already.I don't want to go to school tomorrow :(
Far gave me a text some days back saying "meet soon" or something and I said to myself "Oh shit." I don't mean like I don't give a fucking fuck about my mates,its just the whole thing about moving forward in life that is kind of pulling me back.
See,this April marks a year flat of me being in nursing course.How my friends and I met and sorts and this has seriously got nothing to do with what I'm feeling.hahahaha.
My point is,time is going by me so fast and soon I'll hit 19.Its a bad number,
cause I'm growing old,I'm boyfriend-less(which I don't care so much but everybody needs somebody) and I don't intend to know what I want yet.I just want to hit pause,make my mom and pops happy by working elsewhere,earn some bucks,bring them out for dinner,get both license and live life happily with some kind of drive.
I am crushed on the inside its stupid.I feel disappointed in myself.
I don't know what about.
Well,theres always hope.Theres always faith.
I need to quit feeling all weary and damn right shitty.Though its not going to happen soon,
lets all pray for me that I go anywhere with a smile plastered across my face and don't let it show in my eyes and get it messed with my head.
*mutters repeatedly*
Tomorrow will be a good day,tomorrow will be an excellent day.I need to believe this.
Till next time fucking folks.
Ciao.
Loves,Appreciate!
P.s:Sacrificial acts are meant for those who truly deserve it.