another reason to drift away

you fell for another person,and what am i suppose to do?
stop you?hell no.its my decision not to tell you and its my fault things are the way it is.
I'm hurt yes,but i can't do anything about it but sleep myself off to bed,crying to ease the tension which is knotting up in my heart like balls of yarn.
my feelings won't be the same as it has been for you for anyone else.
4 months i bit my tongue trying not to spill this over-whelming feeling for you,and now that you turned the other cheek,it felt like a stab in my chest.
i cried.
my heart,aches.
yet,i still try to force a smile anyway.for you,and for the people around me.
i guess this is it,time to pack the little bits of mess caused by you and throw them out to sea.
or I'll just leave them in my store room to collect dust and when I'm ready,I'll open them up again..
i don't know why its you i fell for.
I'm sorry,if you think its a mistake.
i just hope you're happy.i want you to be.
i sacrificed my 'wish' i made for us,the one i told you about..
cause i find it pointless now,since you have someone you can do them with.
I'm sorry to have loved you.
its not a mistake i chose to live with for the rest of my life.
it just happened.
-sighs-
:'(