secret cigarettes.

There is so much to be accomplished this holiday yet so limited time and money.
I wish time slowed down like how it felt like when I was eight,when an hour seems like eternity to be playing catching downstairs with the neighbourhood kids.I wish money don't seem to thin,and the weight won't get any lighter after every purchase of anything at all.haha.
Wishful thinking at almost 3 in the morning.
So,Its only been 3 days of the holidays and I'm sick of it.I get up when I want to,help mom with the necessary chores,head out to hang loose and get on the fucking computer.
Very uneventful I know.hahaha.
This holiday seems to be the only time I get to spend my hours with Monty.Sometimes with Mai too.Its been wonderful hanging out with the bunch too. Eating precooked fishballs and sharing around a cigarette stick.haha,
And thats pretty much it.Shit.Har har har.
I am out of words.Can you believe this?haha.

Well,I just want to say a few thing before I log out,
Being a friend is as easy as saying out the alphabets and as complex as saying the alphabets backwards.
It needs to be nurtured with patience,understanding,respect and trust.
Of course crude jokes is tolerable in a friendship but you don't have to get all insensitive and rude about it.Spare a thought for people's feelings.It really is the key to have a prosperous friendship.
And one more thing,
Why is this world so full of jerks-jack asses-asshole-and-moterfucking dick heads?
Where has all the good looking nice guys gone?
Where has chivalry disappeared to?
Where has respect for a woman gone to?
Where is the "I want to get to know you better?" without any ulterior motives been?
Hahahaahaha.
Or am I not looking at the right places?Or so help me God,I'm right.
Isn't it scary how this world is lacking on all the incredible,nice,traditional,wonderful men?

I wish Chris Haslam(hearts!haha!) would call me up one day and ask me out.hahaha!
Here's how the dialogue I have pictured for my wishful self;
*Ring ring*
C.H:Hey,Can I speak to Ili??
Me:Yes,do I know you?
C.H:I want to ask you out.Please say yes?
Me:Who in the name of Bejesus are you?!?! *slight annoyed tone*
C.H:I'm sorry,Its Haslam.Chris Haslam. *smiles in his voice*
Me:HOLY SHIT! *line got dead cause I passed out*
C.:Dammit!
Hahahahahaha!

Please uh God,I just ask for a wonderful guy with shoulder length hair(and has the intentions of keeping it no longer than the waist level),with nice deeps eyes and a set of nicely aligned teeth(obviously with a cute smile) and laughs like a dork but I'll love him anyway cause he'll rest my insecurities and love me for who and what I am all about.
Too much meh? hahaha.
Do I have to look myself in the mirror and see if my ideal man matches with me?Obviously we'll look odd together but dear God,you've proven to me that dreams can come true!Look at what happened to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and I!lol.
Okla,fine,I'll wait patiently and pretend to be more interested,flirtatious and nasty from now on.See what kind of man I attract.Capishe?Just don't tell Pops and Mom bout this.haha.
Till then my lovely friends,have a good weekend!
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:I am dry!