to be with the undecided

I made it through one week of school.It has already drain me out mentally.I am falling asleep in class but strangely enough,the information my lecturers are giving in classes are seeping into my brain like an airborne particle.The only difference is that,I need to keep up by reading and getting the whole idea of what is being taught.So I suppose being in Year two is a no joke business.I'm going to get slaughtered and YOG is coming on head fast.But thankfully,its happening during my clinical posting.
So anyways,right about now,my muscles are screaming in pain.Why you ask?
Because on Wednesday,my Sports and Wellness teacher asked the whole class and I to actually train our self for the NAPHA test this upcoming May and for starters,he asked us to run six rounds around the stadium.JESUS!
I didn't complain about the run cause I was feeling good about the mental stress,forcing myself to run.My timing sucked obviously.Its been months.Should have kept up with Maziah but well,maybe next week I'll be strong enough.
Another reason to my achy muscle is gym yesterday.I didn't do much in there partly because I was embarrass and the other was,I was hurting in every joint which exist in my body.har har.
Any old how,my plans for the weekends have been ruined.Sahar couldn't make it tomorrow for the blading day out and swimming this morning was cancelled cause Farah is having her red flag day.
But,as Farah and I were discussing about whats going to happen last night,we ended up talking for almost an hour on the phone and watching Jersey Shore together.It was hilarious.
I'm probably not going to meet her up this week but certainly next week.When both of us are "clean" and ready for a nice dive at the pool.
Monty has asked me to come hang out with her today,and I'm just waiting for my second brother to come over so I can go out with him and mom to get the grocery or something before heading on out with her.My Nana might be joining too and lets hope today would be a great day!

Well as I'm sitting here blogging I can't help but let my mind wander for a bit.
Why is it that some people don't have to work their butt off to have what they want?Why do they keep telling the same thing over and over again and most of all,why do they have to be stupid in making a decision that is probably going to hurt them anyway?
But there are always two sides in a story.Why some people see it in black or why some people see it in white.I guess,God has a way of letting things happen for a reason.For every good thing that happen,there will be a bad one waiting.And if there is a bad thing that happen,there will always be the glimmer of light waiting at the end eventually.
Ah well,for my part,making something happen is when I really start doing something about my listless life.Like probably making a stupid decision which might benefit me,or working after school in my dreary days to get what I want,what I need.
So till then,I'm going to stop trying to be mean,trying to be nice.
I'll play it neutral and you like it or not,suck it up.I'm through being in the soft or rough situation.
Cheers all.Enjoy the weekends.
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:I think you are the closest to being what I dream of.