Can I hold you?

"You got mail" is a frequent icon I have been seeing lately and its been almost a month now.
Its causing home made pornography in my head and its unreal.
I am pleased and if you are concerned,I am trying to shove the unnecessary feeling of hate out of my life and I'm just trying to live day-by-day with the appropriate emotions on a particular situation.Yes,it is a change and before my feelings divert itself to you,please,get a grip on yourself.I don't want to risk hating someone I thought was reliable.
Anyways,this week has been a breeze.Though it has been pretty exhausting,I think it went on smoothly.I have I/V phase test tomorrow and I'm not sure why I don't even bother to go through my notes.Unfuckingbelievable.
Well,I'm listening to The Corrs-All the love in the world and I remembered how I used to listen to it while groing up.I discovered the song again last night while ironing my uniform.Immediately,I knew I had to find it again.Its a brilliant song!
I especially love this phrase in the song "Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,still believing you'll walk through my door."
Something about it makes me think about my late uncle,how I am trying to relate to what my aunt/cousin is feeling after her loss.I'm sure its depressing.
One of the reasons why the last time I chose not go get hitched,cause I was afraid of losing the only person I love whole-heartedly.
But now,I'm ready cause I finally know that gaining and losing is part and parcel of life extra baggage.
By the way,5th May,alone or not,I want to watch COPELAND.I don't know why.I guess I have to.And for fifty bucks,I don't think I'm going to blow off my dosh for something inappropriate this once.
And I am speechless that "saving myself" is a practice many others are actually carrying out.So I am not alone at all.I hope I'll end up with one of them soon,if not later.
I can safely say that at this sane state of mind,I am actually feeling calm when I am suppose to feel rushed.And for the record,my fucking gut won't cooperate.I think the old ailments are going to hit me right back where it hurts most years ago.I just hope I won't pass out in public and cause a nuisance.
Till then,take care.
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:I am highly hopeful,I get crushed and you,look down on me.While you,are not thankful enough.