The sad part is how one of us is no longer around but nevertheless,we take what was written in fate and gathered as a family on early Monday morning.
I could have sworn how much i hate the airport now.
Too many stupid memories.
lol.
The first farewell to a friend,the send off of a lover and receiving the bad news.
To summarize it up,its the second worst place to be in at any time of day but it can never beat the hospital.hahaha.
Any fucking way,my days have been pretty elaborated.
Was out at almost every other way.Like on Sunday i was out bowling and playing pool with Farah and the kids.Than i went to her aunt's and i was such a stranger among her family members that i ended up doing Bilal's cross-word puzzle book with Farah.I'm glad she kept me company and joined me in the fun of finding words.lol.
On the same night,i went to the airport until late,and i crashed at Nana's.Its been ages and we finally slept at six thirty in the morning next to each other with endless cigarette smoke filling the room.
Was woken up at noon by the high-pitched screaming and yelling of those little ones.
But when i finally got out of the room,i saw them sleeping and snoring. -.-
har har har.
Was out of Nana's by evening and got back home to meet Mari just to chill for a while.
She kind of lost her favourite ring under my void deck and she only noticed it when she got home.So when she gave me a call to go look for it,there were three blokes sitting at the place we were at.
Being ultimately shy around middle aged men kind of woman that i am(or not!),i didn't dare ask if they have seen a ring which belonged to my ever dearest.And i went home feeling bad,telling my parents about it and they call me stupid for not trying to ask.
Talk about supportive parent indeed,right!
And now i'm living in guilt for the ring.lol.
*sighs*
MARI!
I apologize sincerely with my whole heart and soul for being such a loser in not asking,doing you a big favour of at least the first step of trying to find your ring.
Seriously,I'm sorry,big time.I'm never this sorry,ever!
I hope you'll find it somewhere in your bag,in your bike or something so i won't have to live thinking of buying you another ring to replace you the old one.lol!
Anyways,
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.Its just about everything you know.
I was thinking about life;friendship,family,love,hatred.
All those.
- About how the person you thought you could never hate is slowly being something they are not when you used to know them long ago.
- About how the person you've let down still has your back in any point of time.
- About people coming in and out of our lives like 7-11.
- About still being in love even though it has long been over.
- About how to try and figure out the past,finding ways of fixing ourselves again.
- About the right kind of influences we need to have in our lives so that we can continue being in this world feeling loved,appreciated and always hoping for the best in our self and others close to us.
I can never love life as much as where i am in life now.
I've never been this happy though i frown a lot.har har har.
I met the few people who i know loves me,i love them more than anything else at all
(rings included,lol!).
If God would have wanted me dead,now is a good time cause I am content with everything.
Everything except for one thing.
Seb.
- He have this pair of ordinary arms that could make me sleep comfortably.
- He have have broad shoulders that i like snuggling into.
- He have those kind of delicate fingers which can caress through your hair and make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
- He have nice lips,pink and smiley but he looks funky when he smiles widely.
- He have this scary eyes that you fear to look at,but some way or another,its so beautiful that you feel like crying looking at your own reflection cause they are really looking at you.
- He have this look he gives from far away that can make you go "I would so want to do him tonight!"
- He have those kind of legs which will never go tired(try walking from town to Bukit Batok).
God knows why and how we drifted apart.The decision was mutual back then and only now,i realize,the separation wasn't actually what i wanted.
Its a bit too late now.
But,hey!
Life is full of possibility.
Sometimes,it may not be what we wanted cause sometimes its even better!
I hope its like that.
so with a heart filled with hope,
and my x'mas wish to be heard from God,
I hope it all come true.
Cheers!
Happy holidays everyone.
Love,Appreciate!
P.s:If i do whatever it takes to be where we were back then,i think we would have figured out ways to be anywhere else to get married and i would have had tattoos with our future kids name on.
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