Yesterday.
With well wishes and tear stained eyes,i bade goodbye to one of the beautiful memories in my life.
Will there be a chance for us to meet again?I'll leave it up to God to decide,and for now,
I'm eating my heart out on the things which used to matter and reminisce the good times.
OH FOR FUCKS SAKE,this is getting too emotional.
Tak boleh take it,hahaha.
Well,honestly,my heart had that pricking sensation knowing we may never see each other physically again,but with the existence of Technology,we are still able to keep in touch.
or so i hope.
I looked at his picture today,and its like a reflex action,my eyes watered.
See how much of an impact he's made in my life?
Well,there's a dent made which shows a mark that;
when i was 16 and a half,i was in love,naive but matured enough to think that i was with somebody.
No regrets,just memories;good and bad.
Well,anyways,today is mom's birthday.She turns 53 today.I wish her all my deepest apologies(cause lately,i was acting a bit off beat.i was impolite a lot of the times.) but nevertheless,i love her with all my beating heart even though she drives me up the wall.So,cheers to mom!
That aside,did i tell you how down i've been feeling lately?
No,its not because of Seb(only),
i just feel unwell.Mentally and physically.No,im not insane
(yes Ifan,you're not obliged to object),its just that i know for a fact that i won't be feeling dandy,and than it has to come true.
I'm aching all over.Its possibly because of work on Saturday night.The spot right across my shoulder is as stiff as a bulge.lol!
and its is spreading to my lower back.the part which had its history.its a bearable pain,but it hinders me to go out as much as i want to.i feel this huge amount of lethargy even though i had an okay sleep.and talking about sleep,now i'm in bed by 5am the latest.Its still not a good sign,I mean come on,im starting my CP next week and i only have the morning and afternoon shifts.
Its uncool.
Bleargh.Whatever,and tomorrow,i have to drag my two damn feet to school.For mask fitting and if i'm not mistaken,for the CP briefing as well.And some of my mates has asked to hang out after that.I don't know what to decide,but i'll let them know tomorrow.Doh.haha.
My prepaid is down.I don't know when i'm topping it up.Personally i don't care,but i pity some friends who have been texting me,i don't want them to think i'm ignoring them.I just can't get back to them.lol.I can't afford to make phone calls,not because i'm financially unstable,but i know i'll blabber all the nonsense stuffs.so,like they say,prevention is better than cure.haha.
well,Edd just told me Airto had just replied to his wall comment on Facebook,and he's delighted.
I guess i fell happy for him.hahahaha.
so,i got to be off now.i want to surf the net.
i just thought i'd write a post to show i'm doing alright today.
So,guys,take care.
Love,appreciate!
P.s:will you keep your broken promises of not forgetting to remember,me..?
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