I don't think i have been spending it wisely though.Wasting time,sitting around and reading instead of revising on my endless wordy notes and my 'yellow-pages-like' Tabbner book.
I don't think i am regretting my choice of taking up nursing course,but the time schedule has really taken me off guard.I was surprised at myself for holding on to my composure and trying to survive.
I don't know how my friends who is taking up nursing feels at the moment,but i guess each of us has our own ways of dealing with the pressure/exciting ness of it all/anxiousness.
And to add things up,i have a test in two weeks time.I WILL be graded!
Nervous much,damn right i am! :/
Honestly,i don't know what has been up to me lately.I refuse to reply to some Friends text messages lately.The friends I've met and known in Secondary school i mean.
I told Monty,and her reply was a question;
"Are you jealous of them?" -cause they are in Polytechnic and I'm in ITE.And i answered her,no.I'm not.I won't be.Its stupid.Its just that,i guess;
i see it as they are in a different world than i am,and i don't see the need for them to know my condition(situation).I'm not trying to be mean.
Its just how i feel.
I know how i have had some friends who had close relationship with,how attached we were together at one point of time,but in the end,this life's unfair somehow.
People gets drowned in their own self-indulgent feeling.
People like me.haha.But take no offense,its how i deal with things which is not going right at the moment.The only friends i have as of now is Monty,NanaJ and a handful of new friends I've bonded with over the past two weeks.
There's a nagging feeling at the back of my mind,like an apocalypse is about to happen in my head.
I am feeling out of place with myself with no reasons to begin with.I want to talk it out with someone,but i don't think it will make sense for me to begin ;
"I have a problem,but i don't know where the problem is." -i will sound like a mental patient.
Its possibly one of my 'blue days'.I mean,i was feeling up and up weeks back,before school started so i guess,i will just suck it up and try to handle things.
To make things a little bit down,it looks like there will be a thunder-storm.And i dislike it very much.I dislike thunders and lightnings.They make my guts jump from time to time.But rain,i like it very much.I don't like it getting in my shoes though,but i generally like it.
Wow,look,I'm taking nonsense.haha.Oh well,now,the rain has officially poured.it looks great.Greying the surroundings,make the environment a little bit chilly rather than burning hot.
I'm getting sick.My eyes are blurry,my nose is occasionally running,and my throat is expanding in size and aching,making my voice comes out a little husky.Which is pretty cool shnitz minus the aching part though.haha.
Well,i am hoping to get out of the house later.I have texted Monty and i'm waiting for a reply.I hope she agrees.I am actually wanting to have myself a cool drink of honey milk tea with Nata De Coco and get something to eat while I'm out later.And in between,ram my head up with useful information on Nursing studies and the functions of different blood vessels.
My mind is exhausted just thinking about it,but i'm sure i can handle it.Bahahahaaha.
-Sheesh-
I guess,i'm going off to do a little bit of surfing.The internet of course.haha.
Till then,take care.
Love,Appreciate!
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