Accepting,acceptance.

Who knew my honesty turns out to be a good deal,heh?
Yes,i was accepted to join Nursing in ITE East(simei) and my sweetest friend,Amirah,got the same result too!I guess it won't be so bad since i got one alliance with me to join me on the first day of school everyone loves to hate!Haha.
Now,i'm awaiting for the medical check up letter which will come possibly tomorrow or two days after.
I am quite surprised to be chosen,but all the more glad i am.
So,tomorrow,i have to wake up at 5:45 in the morning cause at 6:30 i have to leave for work all thanks to Typical Miss China Lady.lols.Tsktsk,Hui Yin!
haha.she indirectly forced me to work with her and she's blaming me for the morning shift cause if i had wanted to work in the afternoon,it was fully booked and well,what the hell.lols! :D
Eh anyways,i have came across a couple of seriously awesome songs lately,and that is my remedy for this stupid mess building up in my head.
I'm not too sure what this mess is about or how it happened but there seem to be an after math of 'hurricane Katrina' up in my head.lols.Exageration much?indeed.
Oh,want to listen to something not too new but shocking?
Our dearest French man quit his job of unpacking products of China in trucks and deleted his Meez cause i abandoned him for 10 minutes at the 'graveyard'(only Edd knows what i'm talking about).lol!
He wasn't talking to me after that and i signed out and left him behind.lols.Of course,even if it wasn't my mistake i apologized to him.I abandoned my ego and said sorry!can you believe it?haha.But whatever,i've shared with him my good piece of news on Myspace and i hope he's happy for me when he read it in about hopefully 4 hours time when he gets up from his deep sleep. :)
Anyways,i was watching Grey's Anatomy this afternoon,season 4 episode(Freedom) and it brought me to tears..The love story between two cancer patient moved me,its terribly sad.
The guy broke his promise to come back alive when he told the girl he would and the girl had an operation right after his was done.Eh watch for yourself la ok?haha.
Its like a mix of sadness,but you want them both to be happy which is impossible,well you go figure.haha!
I'm bored,i 'm tired and i think i should go to bed soon.But,i can't sleep,how?haha.
Well here's a message to mister..
This feels stupid,this feels wrong.
You need to know,but i'm not that strong.
I want to be the one who hug you when you say you feel alone,stupid and useless,
I want to be the one you throw nasty words at when you're angry at the world,
and than you'll come to me with your head hang loose,and in tears you apologize.
Of course,i would readily accept you in a super tight embrace(Haha!)
I want to get mad drunk with you and talk nonsense so you will forget whats hurting you,
than fall asleep with each other,with your arm propping my head,
and i want to wake up lying next to you with the sun shining on your face,
Than wash up and have fruits for breakfast cause we can think of nothing else except the nasty hang over we both are having.
But most of all,i want to be the one who will always stay by your side no matter how weird,twisted and unfair this life may seem cause who knows,after life,God is kind enough to let us be together..
Haha.yes,its my stupid wishful thinking.
Sometimes,when i write/type all these,i don't know if i'm referring it to anybody at at all.
But there is definitely this painful feeling i carry in my heart for that special someone since months now.
Its possibly my hope and wish for the man in my life who has yet to come and meet,find and accept me for me.
I wish myself luck this year,and to you guys too.
I love you all.